For now we see in a mirror darkly...
Welcome to the secret inner life and reflections of one fan fiction writer on both the events in her real life as well as those in her more fantastical world of writing .
When I was a kid I was in love with horses.
At least the idea of them, since we didnt have any. The neighbors had one, which I got to ride bareback around the field once. I consistently wished for one on every birthday and asked my parents for one. I think, if it had been feasible, they might've gotten me one. It would've become a 4-H project. However, they never did. The care and feeding of one and all it's equipage is quite expensive. Short of that, I read every thing I could about them, every horse story, every Black Stallion book.
Later, after I was grown, I understood owning a horse was a huge investment not only of money, but of time and energy. They need constant attention, grooming, exercise, vet care. They need a life poured into them.
In hindsight, I'm glad my family never gave me that horse, because I realized horses weren't something I wanted to give my life to. I only have so much time & energy and I can't give it to everything.
I think Jesus addressed this question in the Parable of Talents. Basically, it's a story about a man who man who gives his 3 servants each a certain amount of money, then leaves. Each servant does a different thing with it. Later, the man returns to evaluate their decisions--meaning we've each been given a life and everything in that life by God and, eventually, He's going evaluate what we've done with what He's given.
So, what are you doing with yours? 